#7 ORD

Posted by nekolenchan on

Finally. I have officially ORDed from army. It is indeed a gigantic relief! Of course, to dampen the mood, the company demonstrated its ability to treat us badly all the way to the last day. We all wonder why they have to be that way, but nobody seems to have a plausible answer. Throughout my time in the unit, in this company, we have been told not to compare ourselves to others. Of course, this only applies when we compare ourselves to others more relaxed, given more leeway and freedom than us. The reasoning behind this is that we are to hold ourselves to our own standards and pride. Hmm… Maybe, if we were regulars and wholly committed to the unit. REALITY CHECK! We are passing through only. NSFs. We don’t care. Hence, failure reasoning. Ah well. It is all behind us now.

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Many things to consider: service in church, financial woes (finding a job), adapting to university. Life is never simple is it? Must pray for guidance and wisdom in making the decisions that have to be made.

#6 Future

Posted by nekolenchan on

With only three more days to the end of my army enlistment period, a sense of relief and stress is present. Relief for obvious reasons, and stress because I now have to integrate back into civilian life. Finding a job till I enter school, plans for church service and ministries, financial worries and preparation for school are at the top of my list now.

I am currently still looking for a job, with almost no replies from the various companies so far. My spending is going to go up, suddenly ORDing seems a lot more complicated. Adding to the fact that the last three days of army is going to be quite crappy, problems arise in church service and ministry. I can only pray that this blows over soon, I find a job and get settled into being a civilian again. Ah well.

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#5 Valentine’s Day

Posted by nekolenchan on

So it’s February 14th again, and the popular concept of Valentine’s Day leads the populace to engage in a commercially beneficial celebration of “love”.

Being single again since the last occurrence of February 14th, memories definitely come back, and melancholic thoughts arise. A kind of emptiness stirs inside, along with an acute sadness of what was, and is no more. You ponder on what happened, what went wrong, and what should have been. Then you realise perhaps it wasn’t meant to be what you thought it to be. Along with realisation comes acceptance, and along with acceptance comes closure.

Personally, I wish we could be normal friends again. I made every effort, but after awhile grew disheartened and discouraged when I failed to garner positive reactions. Then a mistake in judgement was made, driving an even deeper wedge between two people. I’m trying, I wish you would too.

Happy Valentine’s Day couples. Happy friendship day to all the rest of the people. xD

#4 Pre-Ops

Posted by nekolenchan on

Boring days lie before me. Even the days up to now were relatively ZZZ. Army procedures screwing up as usual, and taking longer and longer to settle each time. Even as the last stage of my NSF life approaches, I feel the “sianz” already.

Just let me ORD in peace, without complications and trouble.

That’s the least you could give us after all the shit you put us through.